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Pediatric Nurse Lucy Letby Handwritten Notes Found: ‘I Killed Them’

Lucy Letby, aged 33, is on trial for a total of 22 charges, including the murder of five boys and two girls at the Countess of Chester Hospital in England between June 2015 and June 2016. The jurors in the trial were presented with images of her diary, which reportedly contained the initials of the babies she is accused of killing.

Pediatric Nurse Lucy Letby Handwritten Notes Found: 'I Killed Them'
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Evidence Presented in Court

During the trial at Manchester Crown Court, the prosecution shares a document featuring some of the babies’ names along with phrases they claim were written by Letby, such as “kill me” and “I don’t know if I killed them. Maybe I did. Maybe this is all down to me.”

Image representing evidence presented to the court

Letby denies the 22 charges, which include the murder of five boys and two girls at the Countess of Chester Hospital between June 2015 and June 2016, as well as the attempted murder of 10 others.

Letby’s Diary

Documents seized from Letby’s home in Chester, England, on July 3, 2018, were also presented in court. The prosecution exhibited pictures of Letby’s 2016 diary, which listed important dates related to the babies’ births, alleged attacks, and deaths, along with their initials.

Evidence being presented in the court

Conflicting Notes and Declarations

Previously, the prosecution presented what they claim are handwritten notes discovered in Letby’s home, where she allegedly referred to herself as a “horrible evil person” and admitted to purposely killing the babies.

Lucy Letby hand written note found
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Second note handwritten by Lucy Letby
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However, other notes reportedly declared her innocence. “I haven’t done anything wrong and they have no evidence so why have I had to hide away?” the notes read. The authorities also confiscated documents from Letby’s hospital desk, including a note containing her colleagues’ names and the message: “I loved you but it wasn’t enough,” as reported by The Guardian.

The Victims and Circumstances

The note further read, “I really can’t do this any more. I just want life to be as it was … I want to be happy in the job that I loved … Really I don’t belong anywhere. I am a problem to those who do know me and it would be much easier for everyone if I just went away.”

Lucy Letby convicted of murder
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The babies allegedly died after receiving excessive milk, air, insulin, or fluid. Two of the victims were triplets, identified as Child P and Child O. According to court testimony reported by the BBC, Child O experienced “acute deterioration,” and Letby allegedly inquired with a doctor if the baby would “leave alive.”

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Surviving Multiple Attacks

Child H, another triplet, was allegedly administered an excess of air and clear liquid, putting its life at risk. The prosecution claims Letby made two attempts to murder the premature infant, who was subsequently transferred from the hospital and experienced a “rapid recovery,” as per the BBC.

The prosecution contends that some of the deceased children survived multiple attacks before ultimately succumbing.

Prosecutor’s Statement

Earlier in the trial, Prosecutor Nick Johnson told the jury, “The collapses of all 17 children concerned were not ‘naturally occurring tragedies.'” He continued, “They were all the work, we say, of the woman in the dock, who we say was the constant, malevolent presence when things took a turn for the worse for these 17 children.”

Prosecutor providing evidence

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Final Thoughts on the Case

As the trial of Lucy Letby unfolds, it continues to capture the attention of the public and medical community alike. The complexity of the case, combined with the emotional impact on the victims’ families, serves as a stark reminder of the critical role healthcare professionals play in the lives of patients.

The outcome of the trial will undoubtedly have significant implications not only for Letby herself, but also for the hospital and the families affected by these tragic events. It is essential that the legal process be thorough and fair in order to ensure that justice is served. Consequently, that steps are taken to prevent similar incidents from occurring in the future.